Tuesday, January 11, 2011


I find out at noon if I have to have radiation and when I can pick up my baby, but for now, I am struggling to rebuild my milk supply and fearing they will tell me to dry up. I am down to 16 days left of my thyroid hormones before the half life kicks out and I am forced to be on meds. I can't go on meds until after radiation (assuming I need it) the meds apparently make the thyroid cells spread and if they are cancerous (we already know the growth was malignant) then they have to be completely destroyed before I can go on meds. PLUS the baby was nervous and resentful of me being gone 2 days I cant even fathom being gone over a week. They said I could wait until he was 1 before stopping nursing. That was a lie.


First day without tears.